A Farewell...Sort Of - Becca

Well, it's no secret, we've been announcing that I'm stepping down from working full-time here at KGCR for a while now, and Dave's been smoothly making the transition in and it's been good. His coming here has definitely been a big confirmation that my life is going in the direction that the Lord has ordered! I had asked the Lord to give us someone who is a harder worker than I've been and that he'd be a good help for the "bossman" among other things, and so far he's been showing that he fits the bill!

Okay, can you indulge in a brief sentimental time with me? I remember when I first came to KGCR, still a 19-year-old "punk kid". Full of ambition (aka, arrogance) about all sorts of things in life, and when I signed on with the station James had asked me to give a 2 or 3-year commitment, I think. At the time, I had no plans on leaving my first church I'd been in since being a Christian or my friends, yet I had no idea what God may have in store for me. I agreed with a bit of hesitancy, thinking that I still could be moving on to "bigger and better" things than a tiny little station on the edge of a corn/wheat field... in northwest Kansas. I went through some times of wrestling, being dissatisfied and restless in life, going through phases of wanting to be a full-time youth leader, thinking about going to Bible college somewhere (afterall, isn't that one requirement to really "do" or "be something" for the Lord?), to wanting to be a missionary. I remember one time when I was at work and taking a short break, having this feeling/thought in the back of my mind that I wouldn't be leaving the station until I was at a point that I had grown to like, and even appreciate the station more - maybe even to the point that I didn't want to leave.

So, the time has come! I am not exactly digging my claws in to the carpet while God's will is forcing me out, yet I can truly say that I have come to appreciate the station and the ministry. I am not stepping away from the job that I've known for the last 7 and a half years with a swipe of my brow and a sigh of relief, saying "Thank You, Lord that I'm finally done"! Not by any means! I have come to appreciate the Tri-State Praise KGCR "family" in the area. Just seeing how so many of you are encouraged on a daily basis by what the Lord is using over the airwaves, and hearing about it from you is such an encouragement and sometimes I think about the spiritual atmosphere of the area, and what it would be like without the ministry.

How many pastors have been challenged to live more Godly lives in response to the Lord's mercy and then turned around to encourage their congregations with that? How many pastors have been on the verge of giving up, only to be encouraged to go one more step, and then one more? How many families have been on the brink of being shred apart by satan's lies, only to hear some Truth that would start setting free and spreading hope for God's mending power? How many men have been encouraged to step up to their role of leading their family in the way of the Lord? How many women have been struggling to maintain control, and then hearing about the power of putting their trust in the Lord and resting in His presence? How many children have had God's Truth reinforced and solidified in their hearts through Adventures In Odyssey or other programs?

I didn't have this kind of resource in my life when I was growing up, and I could be completely wrong, but I believe the affects of it were seen in my family and the community that I grew up in. Now, I by no means am saying that we need to rely on the radio and programs on the radio to evangelize the lost or spur on believers! That is not the job of the radio! In fact, the many Christian resources that are freely available to us in America can often be a crippler to the true calling of a Christian as we may allow ourselves to be lazy and expect the ministry of the "greats" in media to do the work alone. But, I believe that if enough people take the resource for what it is, something to keep their hearts and minds fixed on Christ, something that causes them to dig into the Word rely on the Holy Spirit to find out if the person on the radio is speaking Truth or a little bit off, something that points them to the Lord for encouragement and challenge, then we have a great benefit! I trust there are many people in this area that have taken it for what it is, and their lives show it. And the more people who live it, the more this area is touched by Christ, Who lives in them!

This area still has flaws, suffering from the affects of sin, but as I've met and talked to many of you over the years, the Light of Christ is shining - and may it only increase! Hearing stories of people standing for their convictions in the Lord in the face of compromise, clinging on during extremely tough situations as they wait on the Lord to somehow redeem it all, loving the unlovely, reaching out to the hurting, young people traveling to other countries to tell people about Jesus, and many more stories that I haven't even heard.

I know I've been impacted greatly, not just as an "insider" on this side of the radio, but also as a listener. I have been encouraged by so many programs and music! I come from a broken family, and statistics prove that I would have little chance of having an intact family of my own. But because of the Lord and His Truth that I've found in His Word and the "pounding in" of His Truth and practical applications that have come from about 8 years of Focus On The Family and Family Life Today, I've got a much better jump on marriage than my parents did. And the cool thing is, is that I've seen God's healing power take over in my family over the years, and in a pile of rubble where the enemy stood and declared victory, the Lord has the last laugh and has brought beauty from ashes and continues to do more! My mom has often said that "when you know better, you do better" and she even testifies of the ministry that she's received from KGCR.

Because of the challenges from several programs like Family Life Today, Revive Our Hearts and Truth For Life that have tackled the roles of men and women, I have gone from a feministic kid raised on Rosanne to one who not only sees, but desires to help others see the beauty and security that comes from fulfilling their role as the helper of their husband and nurturer of their children if they have been given that opportunity. And that is why I am no longer at KGCR full-time as of December 31st, 2008.

In July, I got married and shortly after I returned from our honeymoon, there was something telling me that it was time to step aside. I had a stronger desire to be able to be at home and take care of my husband and home, and being away from it so much was causing conflict inside of me. About a month later, we found out we were expecting our first blessing from the Lord - in child-form that is, so the leading to step down was confirmed to be the right direction. I've got another bit of encouragement to share to mothers who may be feeling lonely, but that will have to wait for another blog - hopefully soon.

So, that is why I can say that I so appreciate the ministry of KGCR and am glad that I got to be a part of it for nearly 8 years. Yet, at the same time, I am ready to leave. I am ready to stop being a "career-woman" and take on the greatest God-given career that He has for me. It's a far cry from the "punk kid" that first showed up here! Now, I also want to let you know, that though I am leaving full-time, I will still be here part-time. So, I'm not totally leaving, but the station will no longer be a primary ministry as far as my hourly efforts are concerned. But, with this change, it seemed like a good time to reflect and share as I have. I'll continue to learn and grow with each of you, and may 2009 be another year of falling in love with the Lord and His ways for all of us!

Knock, Knock. Is anyone home? - James

I was just curious. Is anyone actually listening. I've been trying to blog on a more regular basis over the past couple of months but have been experiencing writers block over the last couple of weeks. It's not that I don't have anything to say. Just ask my wife, I always have something to say. It's just that I'm not sure I want to put what I have to say out there where the entire world can read it. So I thought I'd ask; is anyone there. If so, I'd love to hear back from you.

By the way, have you been enjoying the Christmas music? I've been loving it and am already dreading the end with Christmas less then a week away. Of course, I've been playing Christmas music in the CD player since Christmas in July on July 25, much to the consternation of my daughters. But there's just something about turning on the radio and hearing the music of the season that gets me in the Christmas spirit. I hope you've enjoyed it as much as I have. And maybe all of you who have won Christmas CDs can join me in starting to play it in August. Who knows, maybe we'll start a new trend?

"Lasting Impact" Christmas Gifts - Becca

Want a way to give a gift that will make a lasting, eternal impact instead of collecting dust, getting lost or thrown away in the next year? Especially if you want to give a gift to someone who really doesn't want or need anything and would find this to be a good idea. There are several organizations that have gift catalogs in which you can give a specific amount of money toward something that will help people who desperately need it, in the name of a friend or family member.

There are also organizations that may not have a gift catalog, but no need to let that stop you!

You can find out more information by checking out any of the following sites:

International Justice Mission
www.ijm.org
This organization helps to free victims of oppression (such as slavery).

World Vision
www.worldvision.org
This organization specifically helps children and families through child sponsorship, however they have many ways to help through one-time gifts if you aren't ready to sponsor a child monthly.

Samaritan's Purse
www.samaritanspurse.org
Franklin Graham's ministry that includes Operation Christmas Child and provides disaster relief around the world and in the US. They have many ways to help!

Gospel For Asia
www.gfa.org
Many people are familiar with K.P. Yohannan and his free book "Revolution in World Missions". He is the founder and president of this ministry to Asia. You can help a lot of ways, including sponsoring a missionary or providing a blanket for a shivering child.

Blood:Water Mission
www.bloodwatermission.org
Started by the founding members of Christian group Jars of Clay after a life-changing trip to Africa. It helps to provide clean drinking water to villages in Africa who have either gotten sick from drinking the contaminated water or are sick and only have dirty water to drink. They also teach them how to care for the wells and for themselves. Their equation is $1 equals 1 year of clean water for an African.

Shaohannah's Hope
www.showhope.org
Started by singer Steven Curtis Chapman and his wife Mary Beth. Their hearts for orphans compelled them to help others adopt after they experience the miracle of adoption in their own lives. By giving to Shaohannah's Hope, you help families who want to adopt but having trouble affording it, and it gives a home to an orphan.

Also, for anyone who wants to know about the ministries that we air on KGCR, many are in need of financial help, as they have also been lacking funds because of the economy. For a list of programs we air, including links to their websites, go to www.kgcr.org.

AND PLEASE REMEMBER, give as the Lord leads. Let Him guide you in being a steward of the money and resources that He has lent to you for His glory. Please give to your local church first, before giving elsewhere, whether it is for Christmas gifts or to other ministries.

Have a Wonderful Christmas, celebrating Him!

A different kind of Love Dare - James

I've been thinking lately about last weeks Good News Memory Verse, John 13:35 - By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another." I wonder how many people who see us in our day to day lives can see that we are Christ's disciples? My feeling is that, if we really, truly lived out this verse, we'd be overrun by people wanting into our churches. Who wouldn't want to go to a place where everyone has the goal of doing something nice for someone else. But I wonder if most people visiting our places of worship really notice any difference from what they see in the world. A suggestion for this holiday season - look for at least one person each day that you can show God's love to, no strings attached. Then let me know the results. Email me at kgcr@kgcr.org.

Operation Christmas Child - James

Operation Christmas Child Shoe Box Collection has wrapped up for another year and we've had another fantastic response. Here at KGCR we collected more than 1,000 shoe boxes for needy kids around the world. That included boxes from drop off sites in McDonald, Hoxie and Oakley which, in turn, brought their boxes here to Tri-State Praise KGCR. But the news gets even better. Although they didn't bring their boxes to KGCR, the drop off sites in eastern Colorado and southwest Nebraska also had a good response. With their collections added in, the tri-state area collected 1,922 boxes. Those boxes are now headed to the processing sites and I know that a number of our listeners area also headed there to help get the boxes ready for shipment all around the world. If you'd like information on taking a group out you can go to the OCC page on our web site: www.kgcr.org. Just click on the link to Samaritan's Purse for more information. And thanks to everyone who participated in this years Shoe Box Collection, helping to provide a Christmas gift to needy kids worldwide while also introducing them to Christ.

Why does God allow difficult times? - James

I've been going through a low point in my own life recently. Nothing like some of you in the KGCR listening audience are experiencing but still some things that have caused me to stop and ask God why I didn't see him "fixing" these struggles. God reminded me, through His word, that we wouldn't have much of New Testament if it hadn't been for Paul's struggles. If he hadn't been in jail he would have traveled to the churches and told them what he had to say in person. Instead he was stuck in jail and spent his time writing to those churches. Those letters comprise much of the New Testament that we have today. I'm sure Paul didn't want to be in jail. But God allowed him to go through a difficult time so that he would be able to reach a huge number of people, thousands of years after his death, through his writing. Who knows how God will be able to use the struggles we're going through right now for His glory down the road. That may not make the current struggle any easier but hopefully it will encourage you as you make your way through the valleys in your life. Follow Paul's example and serve God wherever you are.

Cultivate a Thankful Heart This Thanksgiving - Becca

For several months now, it seems that there has been a heightened level of stress and anxiety due to political, social and economic events. When listening to the news, it seems that we are not often given much of a chance to breathe a sigh of relief. In fact, if our hope is influenced greatly by what we hear, then it may be that many people's hope has been steadily decreasing like a tire infected with a nail.

The Bible tells us that faith comes by hearing (Romans 10:17) and I don't think that it's talking about just "hearing" something like the hum of a fan in the background. Romans 10 :17 specifically says ,"Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word of Christ." Most of the time, when the Bible talks about "hearing", it is talking about believing, or putting stock into what you are listening to. What are you taking to heart? Are you putting your faith in what the media is saying? Are you believing everything you are hearing on Fox, CNN or even SRN news? Are you putting too much stock in what your good, reliable, knowledgeable friend in the local cafe has to say?

If you are finding yourself anxious more than peaceful, maybe a careful consideration of the following verses is in order. Are you working on living this instruction in your life? (Don't worry, this is for me, too!) The way I understand it, there is a promise in there for us if only we follow the instruction...

Philippians 4:4-9
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you. (emphasis mine)

Who is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent and praiseworthy, and who gives these kinds of things to us? - Father God, Jesus, Holy Spirit.

With that short introduction, here's a few ideas that I thought I'd share with you to help you think on the goodness of the Lord this Thanksgiving. I hope it's one of the best Thanksgivings you've had, as far as filling your heart with gratitude and appreciation, and not just filling the tummy with turkey and cranberry sauce. :)

Because we often don't know what we have until we don't have it, in preparation of your family meal, or sometime after: choose at least 5 of the following and take time to consider what life would be like if you didn't have those things. Next, spend time as a family or individually thanking the Lord for the blessings that He has given AND pray for those who don't have what you have.
- family
- friends
- a place to live
- the ability to worship freely with other believers without fear of persecution
- food
- clean water to drink and bathe in
- the ability to read
- the ability to see, hear, touch, talk, smell, walk, etc.
- a job
- children to nurture
- parents to be encouraged by
- a car to drive
- the freedom to be alive
- anything else that is significant to you

Put every family member's name in a bowl. Have each person draw a name and hand everyone a piece of paper and pen, then write down 10 things that they appreciate about that person.

Start looking for ways to give to others who won't have much for Christmas.
- Check out the various gift catalogs available through organizations like World Vision, Gospel For Asia and Samaritan's Purse
- Put together a "care" package for a local family that needs a little extra help and encouragement, filled with food, gift certificates, clothing, etc.
- Think of an elderly person who needs a little help around the house and commit your family to help them
- Start a routine of visiting a local nursing home to share some encouragement with elderly
- Seek ways to help orphans in your hometown or abroad (cryoftheorphan.org)
- Be creative and seek the Lord about how He would have you and your family be a blessing to others

FireProof-Extension of the Extension-James

It is always exciting to see the Christian community rally behind something positive. That's why I'm so happy about the response to the movie FireProof. The local theatre manager worked really hard to get the movie into Colby. Due to limited number of reels available, it's release was mainly focused on large metropolitan areas and there was some question whether a small town in Northwest Kansas could pull in the numbers to make it's showing worthwhile. But residents of the tri-state area have given a resounding response to the naysayers. Not only was the showing extended for an extra week due to the great response, officials now say they're being allowed to keep the movie for an additional weekend. That means FireProof will continue to be shown at the Colby Cinema through Sunday, November 16. You can see it each evening at 7:00pm through Saturday and then at 4:00pm on Sunday. Thanks to everyone for your great response. Please also thank the folks at the Colby Cinema for their hard work to make seeing this movie possible right here in the tri-state area.

The Day After... - Becca

Wow, where does one begin?!?! A lot of hearts were elated today, a lot of hearts were heavy. Regardless of which category you find yourself in today, it's quite possibly because you are looking to the future - with hope, or with fear. Maybe you've found yourself teetering on the line that keeps you somewhere in between, generally full of hope, yet not without a nagging little bit of uncertainty clinging to your socks, keeping you from drifting off into blissful earthly peace, suckered by a feeling that life as you know it for you, and for everyone else, will no longer be the same. And it's a annoying feeling that it won't necessarily be for the better, well, as far as your flesh is concerned. (And before any conclusions are allowed to be drawn, I want to assure you that I don't say that because America just elected it's first African-American president - I am very glad that racial lines are continuing to be blurred in many hearts. I'm talking about uncertainty of the future.)

The economy has been like a yo-yo lately, it seems like unrighteousness, disillusionment and deception continue rising, the U.S. is losing favor with nations in the world, God seems to be pushed further and further away from our nation and many others, and it seems that no matter how much His children fast, pray and beg, it doesn't seem to help. It really, overall, just doesn't seem like roses and daisies. But maybe that's because we are looking with our natural eyes, and not with our spiritual eyes.

I admit, I didn't sleep the best last night. In fact, there have been several nights that I've awakened in the middle of the night with an unsettling feeling, and the only thing that would help would be a glass of milk and spending time talking to the Lord. Growing up, I didn't think that there could be so much change in our country. I may not have known what my life would have been like, but I think somewhere in the back of my mind, I always planned I would be able to get married and raise my 2.5 children, have a dog and a happy little family going through typical life struggles.

Now I'm married, getting ready to welcome our first child in several months, and just not sure how much of a "happy American dream" we will have. At the same time, I spoke with a friend today who is 70, and she said that her parents thought the end of the world was coming when they were in World War II, and she's still here 70 years later. I've talked with Godly people who really believe we don't have much more time, but then I've talked with/heard from others who really believe we still have a little more of a chance. I really don't have the answers, and I don't know a lot of things, except that we must set apart Christ as Lord in our hearts.

I want to share something, because I KNOW many of you are feeling similarly - I've talked with some of you. Yesterday I got a letter from a ministry that I've received letters from for many years. It was a timely message. And I thought I'd like to share some of the things that I was encouraged with today. The Holy Spirit used the letter, a couple of conversations I had with dear friends, and His flat out Truth to help me. May He also encourage you, today as well.

One friend and I were both experiencing the same heavy heart today about the future. She shared with me something that the Lord revealed to her. This morning, she heard many birds outside singing their little birdie hearts out. It was while listening to them that she felt the Lord remind her of how He cares for even the sparrows (Luke 12:6-8) and how much more is He concerned with us? If they can freely sing, then why can't she/we sing Him praises...no matter how things are going?

Here is an excerpt from that ministry letter (from World Challenge Inc.) that I got. "Simply put, Satan wants to rob you of all hope by consuming you with foreboding thoughts. But you cannot figure out the future through being totally preoccupied with this. In reality, it can get you bogged down in fear and obsessing about frightful events."** (You can check out the full letter at the link provided below.) This encouraged me as it was a confirmation to what the Lord has reminded me of on a few occasions whenever my mind would start wondering into that uncertain territory.

It goes along with Matthew 6:33-34 "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." We DON'T KNOW what the future holds, so why waste time and energy on worrying about it? Instead, let's use that time and energy on counseling our hearts to trust that no matter what, God's grace is sufficient for each day, each hour, each season! Mothers taking care of their family each day, doing the same mundane things day in and day out rely on the same God who gives grace to those who are dying for their faith in other countries.

I was speaking with another friend who recently, after decades of walking with the Lord, started to find peace in simply thanking and trusting the Lord each day that He is faithful to give the grace for what she needs for that very day. She has been through a lot of tough stuff in life, yet she remains determined to be faithful to and trusting of her loving Father. She could be another one who is disheartened right now, but she did a couple of things.

One, she's been counseling her heart in the Lord, and two, she's been staying away from too much political media the last couple of weeks as she noticed it was fogging up her prayer life. Have you noticed, especially in this election, how excessively "passionate", or maybe I should say "harsh", "rude" and even "hateful" - INCLUDING CHRISTIANS - have been? I'm wondering, if we are supposed to be walking in the Spirit (Who's characteristics are displayed in Galatians 5) have we really been trusting God? Yes, I am ALL FOR speaking the Truth and telling people about important issues concerning the candidates that concern you, but to do so in love! Something that I can't say that even I did all of the time.

I noticed it was particularly easy for me to get "fleshy" and eventually worried after absorbing myself too much in what the media was saying. Maybe if we relied on God and what He said more than what others were saying, we'd be better off? I know it worked out better for Caleb and Joshua. (Numbers 13:30-31, Numbers 32:11-13)

So, I've had a lot to say, some may be used as an encouragement for you if you ponder on it with the Lord. I hope it's at least a launching point for you to seek Him more. We don't know what the future holds, especially in a society that increasingly seems to cry out "tolerance" for everyone but Christians. But I want to share two more things that are on my heart (which very easily can go together in this time), one of which I may blog about more in depth later.

Hebrews 12:14-15 "Make every effort to live in peace with all men and to be holy; without holiness no one will see the Lord. See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many."

Please, if you are a follower of Christ, guard your heart and do not allow bitterness to remain in you. It truly will defile you, and many others.

Romans 13:1 says, "Everyone must submit himself to the governing authorities, for there is no authority except that which God has established. The authorities that exist have been established by God." (emphasis mine)

Jesus is still the King of kings (Presidents of presidents), all authority is under Him (Psalm 72:11) and He directs a king's heart (Proverbs 21:1). We may not trust how things are going in the nation or world, but we can trust the One who is not caught off guard by any good or bad in the world.

Blessings and His peace be with you,

Becca

Any comments, please send to beccatsp@kgcr.org.

** Posted with permission from World Challenge, Inc. http://www.worldchallenge.org/en/newsletter/resting_in_jesus_in_perilous_times

*** Scripture from NIV

FireProof-James

Have you seen it yet? If not, I have good news. We just received word that FireProof, from the makers of Facing the Giants, will be back at the Colby Cinema for another week. If you haven't seen the movie yet that means you have another weekend to check out what I personally feel is the best movie of this decade. If you've already seen it this means you have the opportunity to see it again and, this time, to take some neighbors or friends to see it with you. Now I know that "Christian" movies sometimes have a reputation for a lack of quality and can be a little embarrassing. But I can honestly say that the twists and turns of FireProof kept me on the edge of my seat for the entire show. This movie not only presents the gospel in a compelling and clear manner and emphasizes a view of marriage rarely seen in our modern world, but it does it all in a package that is extremely well put together and very interesting to watch.

One extra cool tidbit. This is the first movie I know of where a stunt double is used for a kissing scene. The directors say they didn't feel it was right to have the main couple to kiss in the movie since they're not married in real life. So lead actor Kirk Cameron's wife stands in for that scene. How cool is that!

Election Day-James

It's election day. And if you listen to any news at all that probably means a time of tension for you. Will the person I support get elected? Will the person elected lead us in the direction I think we should go in or in another direction? Will the candidates do what they've promised? There are enough questions to leave us curled up in a corner in a fetal position. That's why I'm taking a new tack this year. I'm voting - that's my part. But this year I'm taking God at His word. His Word says He's in control, He's soverign and He is working out His perfect plan. He already knows the results of the election. He's not going to be surprised. So instead of worrying, this year I'm going to take Him at His Word. It may not be the outcome I'd like to see. It may not be the outcome I think would be best for our country, our state, or even for our community. But I can't see the future so what I think would be best probably isn't even close to God's best. As Woodrow Kroll says, there is a God and I'm not him. So this year I'm going to praise God that we have the right to vote, I'm going to cast my vote, and then I'm going to get back to doing what God has called me to do in my little corner of the world and trust Him to take care of all the issues I really have no control over anyway. Happy Election Day!

Hi there! - Dave

Hey how's it goin, it's me the new guy you could say. I'm still getting used to the area, as well as learning the ropes of the station. Becca has been incredibly helpful in training me and teaching me all I need to know. Thanks Becca!!! I'm not really sure what to say, this being my first real blog ever! I'm really thankful to be back in radio, to be honest I wasn't sure after leaving our sister station KPNO if I was ever going to be back in radio. Then one day as I was literally waking up and James gave me call long story short here I am. I am kinda missing everybody from Camp Assurance, a Bible camp for kids I volunteered for over the summer. The kids were so much fun to be around, it was pretty much non stop action from beginning to end. The staff was so helpful especially considring that was my first experience working at a summer camp. Then there was the camp directors who were always there to pray with me and help me through those days where I had no clue what I was doing. In the end, this past year God has taught me a great deal how important it is to seek Him out through His Word and Prayer. and how he can open the doors to paths you you would never expect.

Until next time
Dave

The Beginning of the End...of the Top 10

What I'm going to share in this blog is really what I was starting to aim toward in the last. "Fall, Winter, Spring, Summer" ended up being a good lead-in for this one. The last blog could be compared to getting in the car, driving toward an expected location, taking a slightly different route and ending up in a place that was actually a bit better than the previously planned destination. The nutshell version of the last bit of encouragement could probably be, "Don't put your hope and expectations and fulfillment of happiness in the things of this world, for they are temporal and will leave us disappointed in the end, for the longing of a hope-fulfilled is to be only in that of Christ." If you haven't read it yet, I encourage you to, it may be helpful in mentally consuming this blog. Be prepared for Part 2. :o)

Rarely when I write do I think "this is going to be a lengthy one". In fact, I often think it's going to be pretty short, and then when I type my last punctuation mark, I find that I've nearly written a long essay or short novel! This time, I really don't intend to take very long. Since nearly the beginning of my time at KGCR, in my youthful zeal and desire to reach youth, I had brought up ideas about doing some sort of programming that would be more tailored to the youth. At the time, our format wasn't known to be one that would draw youth in like moths to a flame, rather to some it may have been more like a dog whistle to man's best friend. But, times changed and slowly, so did our musical format to something that may provide an adaquate musical selection to head in a direction that would hopefully hit most listeners, younger and older (you can decide which category you fit in). In 2004, we ventured out with something that wasn't exactly exclusively for youth, but it wasn't just for adults either. We had a nice response to the yearly countdowns that we did, and Shane and I were good friends and wanted to do something fun and something different to help bring a little more local personality to the station. So, the birth of the Praise FM Top 10 came about in September of that year. We had done some questioning and a bunch of thinking before we launched into this venture.

We had some hesitancy coming from at least one of our network stations, saying that they had tried a countdown show and it didn't fly very well for them. On the other hand, we figured we might as well try it and if we bomb, we bomb. If we it works, then great! So, we tried it. It took a little time to get the hang of things, but eventually the show started taking off. Surprisingly, people like it!

Shane and I rarely had a plan, and I'm sure regular listeners would catch onto that fact. Shortly after we began and noticed that we seemed to have been given a platform, we started looking into doing something with that platform. An opportunity to bring challenges and encouragement through our stories and through the stories of some of today's most popular Christian artists was at our door. We wanted to have seriousness, but didn't want to neglect the occasional fun and goofiness. As we look back over the last few years, I hope that the Lord was able to use the Top 10 to plant seeds. That there may have been someone who was on the brink of giving up, but then decided to go another step; someone who didn't give much of a thought to others, but is now doing something for those who are suffering; someone who didn't feel like anyone cared, but felt the encouragement of the Lord coming their way; who wasn't sure of their direction in life, but felt His nudge through something covered on the Top 10. Maybe something that dramatic happened, it may seem like a lofty hope, but I don't put it passed the Lord to do something like that. I know I've had life-changing seeds planted through programs that I've heard on KGCR.

So, what's up with all this sentimental, memory-lane cruisin'? Well, the seasons are changing, and I've felt it for a while. Have you? Yeah, I got married over a month ago and that's a pretty huge life-change. Shane has been under-going his own life changes that are for the good. And because of this, September 27th and 28th, a little over 4 years after our first Praise FM Top 10 show, will be our last. And we are okay with this, in fact, we have peace about it. It's sad, but it's good. He's good.

It's been fun and it's been life-changing. At least for us, and knowing the Lord doesn't waste things and because we've heard from some of you, I know it's had an impact on listeners, maybe even you in some way. I don't think that we would've ever won an award. The idea of a countdown show isn't very original. We don't have impressive editing techniques. We don't have consistantly amuzing or deeply thought-provoking personalities. We don't have a consistant, formated plan from show to show. I can't even say that our hearts have always been into the Top 10. Despite the unimpressiveness of our simple little show, we are grateful that the Lord would use us to encourage people.

This may not be the last official Top 10 blog, but I don't want to miss the opportunity to say thanks! Thanks for the support, thanks for the encouragement, thanks for laughing, thanks for listening. :o) Listen in all the month of September as we reminisce over the last 4 years of the show and give you a chance to win some cool stuff!

Blessings,
Becca (and Shane)

P.S. - I know it's tough for some to be able to leave a comment on this blog, so if you find it easier to email, you may do so at the following address: beccatsp@kgcr.org . Please put in the subject line: Top 10 Blog

Thank you!

Fall, Winter, Spring, Summer

Jon Foreman of the group Switchfoot creatively, in the past year, released 4 EPs (containing 6-songs on each album), all released corresponding with the seasons. In the fall of '07, the album "Fall" was released, clear through "Summer", which was released this past June. In the fall of last year, Jon looked with anticipation to release his creative beauties to the public, not knowing how they would respond. Now the anticipation is over, and he knows to some degree what the effects of his love for song writing produced in these projects.

A season of writing and creating, then music and lyrics married together to be unleashed to a listener in it's final state. Olympic athletes work for much of their life for that one moment in which all their work will end with a stance on a podium holding a medal to reward their efforts, and then they fade off into the fog of memories and black and white statistics. The child looks forward to unwrapping that gift under the tree, hardly able to sleep he's so overcome with excitement. Finally he gets to tear the thin paper to unveil his prize, he enjoys the gift for a season, but then it's left untouched with last year's toys.

Recently, while my new husband and I were in Hawaii for our honeymoon, we would often say things like "Let's just stay here" or "Do we really have to go back?" as we were impressed with the amazing, and often breath-taking beauty we saw before us. We saw things so beautiful, it was tough to understand that we were really seeing it with our own eyes and not on a movie screen. We saw things so massive, like a towering waterfall or the huge expanse of the ocean, that it was hard to absorb the incredible force before us. We were overcome by a substance that we are used to being so tame, like when we drink it or take a shower in it, that we were literally knocked off of our feet by the powerful force of the ocean waves coming into shore from a long journey from the expanse of the great deep.

We loved this experience that boggled our senses, but even with all that, the newness started to wear. The land filled with palm trees and tropical sunsets in just a 10 day period, started to become the norm. We left before the appreciation faded, but if we were to return and live, how long would we love the landscape as we did with wonder? In the land that we live now, what beauties have we lost to apathy?

Beginnings and ends, beginnings and results. Newness is no match for time. Seasons come and go and they are a good thing to help remind us to keep our face looking toward the Lord. Nothing we know is constant, except that everything is constantly changing, and except for the Lord. Having our hope and security in anything other than the Lord leads to failure. Have I perfected this? Am I one who totally and completely puts my trust in the Lord? I am one who multiple times daily needs that reminder.

Do you find yourself saying to yourself, "I hope I can get married...", "I hope I can have children...", "I hope I can have grandchildren...", "I hope I get visit Africa...", "I hope...", "I hope...", "I hope...", "...before things get too bad in society!", "...before the Lord returns!"? Yeah, me too at times. Then, we see gas prices rise, the economy and society getting worse, and we can get disheartened and fearful. Beloved, (and Becca), "Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God." - Psalm 43:5

As my husband has reminded me on more than one occasion, nothing here on earth will come close to comparing to what awaits those who trust in the Lord as their Master, their Lover, their Redeemer, their Hope. Newness fades. Excitement grows into apathy. This world is deteriorating. Put your hope in the One who makes all things new...then remind yourself again and again that this place is only temporary and our Prize, our Love, our King awaits to redeem His Bride, and when that happens, the joy and newness will never end! Until then, as one who is in relationship with such a God, we get to have His life and power in us, flowing out of us and reaching others for His inheritance, for His glory.

Lord, help us to keep our hearts and minds permanently fixed on You and not on this world or the things in it, and help us to fulfill Your plan for us while we await Your return. May our hope totally and completely rest in You! As Your child, we come to You asking this, on the authority of Jesus' Name. In Your mercy, so be it.

Psalm 34
1 I will bless the LORD at all times; his praise shall continually be in my mouth.
2 My soul makes its boast in the LORD; let the humble hear and be glad.
3 Oh, magnify the LORD with me, and let us exalt his name together!
4 I sought the LORD, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears.
5 Those who look to him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed.
6 This poor man cried, and the LORD heard him and saved him out of all his troubles.
7 The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him, and delivers them.
8 Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!
9 Oh, fear the LORD, you his saints, for those who fear him have no lack!
10 The young lions suffer want and hunger; but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.
11 Come, O children, listen to me; I will teach you the fear of the LORD.
12 What man is there who desires life and loves many days, that he may see good?
13 Keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking deceit.
14 Turn away from evil and do good; seek peace and pursue it.
15 The eyes of the LORD are toward the righteous and his ears toward their cry.
16 The face of the LORD is against those who do evil, to cut off the memory of them from the earth.
17 When the righteous cry for help, the LORD hears and delivers them out of all their troubles.
18 The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.
19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the LORD delivers him out of them all.
20 He keeps all his bones; not one of them is broken.
21 Affliction will slay the wicked, and those who hate the righteous will be condemned.
22 The LORD redeems the life of his servants; none of those who take refuge in him will be condemned.
(ESV)

Anxiousness and Hope - Pre-wedding thoughts - Becca

Well, as I type, I'm 3 and a half days away from my wedding and "Martha" has reared her up-tight head again! Last night I was looking at a messy house, waiting for my attention, reminding me that I am having a special party in just a day and a half and it needs cleaned! Also, I have a list of items "needing" to be done right away in the hectic hours preceeding the big day. But, just as the night before, I left my beloved to do some last-minute chores so I could go sit in the presence of the true Beloved. I went and shut myself in the bedroom of the soon-to-be officially my house and allowed the following verses to confront me.

Luke 10:38-42 "Now as they went on their way, Jesus entered a village. And a woman named Martha welcomed him into her house. And she had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet and listened to his teaching. But Martha was distracted with much serving. And she went up to him and said, "Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to help me." But the Lord answered her, "Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her." (ESV)

"...anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary." Sitting at His feet, in His presence. The only thing necessary. Time and time again, over the course of my courtship with Joel, the Lord has been showing me parallels. Parallels in the relationship with man and the relationship with the Lord. The emotions, the heart's yearnings, the desires and hopes that take place between a man and woman, a parent and child - they are simply a shadow, a destorted reflection designed to speak to man of the yearnings and passions of the Lord. We were created in His image.

Genesis 1:27 "So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them."

Romans 1:20 "For His invisible attributes, namely, His eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly perceived, ever since the creation of the world, in the things that have been made. So they are without excuse. "

If we were to go days without having a conversation, or even some good connect time with the people we cherish, especially our spouse, then the relationship suffers. If we go days without intimacy with the Lord, our relationship suffers, and our Lord is hurt. Just as we truly need Him for everything (whether we know it or not), He longs for us to connect with Him.

Man and wife. A covenant to be taken seriously. A picture displaying to the unrighteous world the faithfulness of God, His devotion and passion for His creation that was made in His image.

There is so much that I could write on, and some day I may, but for today, I need to rest on just a couple. This marriage I'm getting ready to enter into is a big deal. I recently got this book by Gary Thomas called "Sacred Marriage". It's been promoted on Family Life Today before. I love the subtitle: "What If God Designed Marriage To Make Us Holy More Than Happy". It means that the first time Joel and I have an issue as a married couple, it's not grounds for us to split. It means that even after the 490th time that we've had to forgive each other, it's not grounds for us to split. It means that each and every time we aren't getting our way, it's an opportunity for us to rest and find our fulfillment, strength and courage in the Lord to step up and let Him love His faithful love through us.

Am I excited about this? Yes and no. My spirit is, but my flesh, well, of course the flesh can't be excited about it. But in the words of Brandon Heath, "I'm Not Who I Was". I'm a new creation in Christ Jesus, more than a conquorer, I no longer live but Christ lives through me! Oh, Jesus help! I'm so weak and needy! So dependent, so can't do anything on my own!

I've been so blessed! The Lord spared me several years ago from an on-going path of destruction. He took me in, cleaned me up and has been teaching me a new way. Not to dwell on the past, but I didn't see many God-centered marriages growing up, and was destined to do what I've known and seen. But over the course of the last 8 years, He has consistantly been teaching me a new way, building me up and giving me an opportunity to learn the beauty of marriage for His glory. Will I do everything perfect? No, and even this week I've messed up. But I'm a lot further along than I could have been.

Several months ago, I had basically accepted, "Lord, if You want me to stay single, You will give me the grace. If you want me to be married, You will give me the grace". I love that marriage isn't designed to make me happy! Will I be? Yes. All the time? No. But it's about Him getting the glory! And if His reputation is on the line, then I know that He will help if I let Him!

I'm in my mid-late 20s, and already I've had classmates who have been married, divorced, separated, gone through some pretty tough things. I do feel for them. You may be in a very difficult situation yourself. Hosea in the Bible sure can relate. I don't have all the specific answers for specific situations and I'm not going to try. But what I do know, is that no matter what, the Lord is to be our fulfillment, and when He is, we can do all things through Christ Who gives me strength (Phil 4:13).

I have a burden for women, both single and married, who have wrapped up their identity and hopes into a man. Man will disappoint EVERY time - whether in a suffering relationship or a Godly one. Marriage was never meant to be a hoped end. It has a living purpose. Happiness will NOT be found in a man or woman. Marriage is only a picture to lead us to the One who longs for us to know Him. If married, when we get to that understanding, the pressure is taken off of our spouse and put on the only One who can fulfill. If single, the pressure is taken off of that one-day "someone" and rests in the only One who can fulfill. Lord, help me to remember this!

I can go on and on, but my last blog before I become Becca S., I want to encourage each of us, INCLUDING and ESPECIALLY myself in this last bit before the wedding, to hush. To stop getting so "anxious and troubled" about all the things that "need to be done" and the dreams that are hoped to be fulfilled, and go to the only One who is worthy and able. To sit at His feet. To adore Him. To learn from Him. To gain His heart, to hear His concerns, to let Him delight over us and for us to delight in Him.

It's all about Him. It's all about Him. It's all about Him.

Read it again. Let Him speak to you.

Luke 10:38-42 "As they continued their travel, Jesus entered a village. A woman by the name of Martha welcomed him and made him feel quite at home. She had a sister, Mary, who sat before the Master, hanging on every word he said. But Martha was pulled away by all she had to do in the kitchen. Later, she stepped in, interrupting them. "Master, don't you care that my sister has abandoned the kitchen to me? Tell her to lend me a hand." The Master said, "Martha, dear Martha, you're fussing far too much and getting yourself worked up over nothing. One thing only is essential, and Mary has chosen it—it's the main course, and won't be taken from her." - The Message

Choose the only essential thing, and it will not be taken from you.

Needing Him in every way,
Becca

Happy Slavery Day? - Becca

Happy Independence Day!

I don't want to be a "bummer" on this day of celebration, but on the day of Independence, I wanted to take a moment to share with you a few bits of information to help us remember that just because we may live in a "free" country, many people - both internationally AND in this country - are still living as slaves. Something that keeps coming up on my heart since we interviewed Natalie Grant on the Praise FM Top 10 back a few years ago is human trafficking. Adults and children all over the world have been forced into inhumane labor, very similar to how things were before the African slave trade was abolished in the 1800s. Do you have the movie "Amazing Grace" on DVD? Have you checked out the special features? I highly encourage you to do so if you haven't. You'll see why.

Something that I wasn't aware of is that women and young girls all over the world INCLUDING THE USA, have been kidnapped/decieved and sold as sex slaves. According to the International Justice Mission's website, "More children, women and men are held in slavery right now than over the course of the entire trans-Atlantic slave trade: Millions toil in bondage, their work and even their bodies the property of an owner." - www.ijm.org

Then, there is the other side of the coin to look at. Think of the people fueling the industry of damaging the hearts and souls of these women and children. Those involved with paying money for the "services" of these hurt individuals, or accessing it for "free" on the internet. They are people we know, that we may not even know that they too are slaves. "...for a man is a slave to whatever has mastered him." - 2 Peter 2:19b. They are damaged too, and need prayer and the power of Christ to free and heal.

To learn more about how to help/pray/get active against slavery, helping to make more days and independence day for many, I'm including a few sites to check out.

www.ijm.org - International Justice Mission
From their site, "International Justice Mission is a human rights agency that secures justice for victims of slavery, sexual exploitation and other forms of violent oppression.

www.thedefendersusa.org - The Defenders USA
According to their website, "The Defenders USA is a coalition of men that are opposed to all forms of commercialized sex." Not only are they opposed, but they are doing something about it.

http://www.lc2lc.org/ - Loose Change To Loosen Chains
Started by a TEEN who's compassion drove him to do something. Zach Hunter said, on his site, "I founded Loose Change to Loosen Chains because I felt a need to do something to bring freedom to the victims I was learning about."

www.thehomefoundation.net - The Home Foundation
Started by Christian musical artist Natalie Grant. According to the site "The Home Foundation is a non-profit charitable foundation dedicated to the eradication of human trafficking both domestically and abroad. Through advocacy, education and relief efforts, the Home Foundation is committed to end the suffering of women and children sold into sexual slavery.

Smile...it's funny! :) - Becca

Friends,

So, in my on-going search for "show prep" - surfing the internet, viewing band and music news sites - in hope to find tidbits of info that will be a benefit for me to share with listeners at random times in which it may seem appropriate, I occasionally come across the unusually humorous or thought-provoking piece of evidence that not everything is the same humdrum, run-of-the-mill, basic "I've heard that before" information that creates more of a yawn or instigates eyes rolling back in the head than it does a smile or even a bust-a-gut, "I gotta share this with my friends"-type reaction. (Deep breath) So, without further ado, I must present to you my latest finding that brought a smile to my face and even a bit of a chuckle thanks to Mercy Me. Hope it amuses you today, too!

http://mercyme.org/blog/2008/06/13/special-anouncement/

Blah, Blah, Blog - Becca

I don't know why I entitled this "Blah, Blah Blog". Just sounded kinda fun today, and though "blah, blah, blah" is usually associated with the rambling on of seemingly insignificant banter, I hope the following assortment of verbage doesn't fall into the "Trash" category. Hopefully it is an encouragement, and by the end of my final typing of this thing, I can look back and see some more significant meaning of the titling. This may end up being random, however, I think it will tie together in the end. Since I recently "downed" a Starbucks Double Shot, I am sufficiently loaded with the needed espresso to fuel some speed-typing, and speed-thinking right now hoping to not let my mental inspiration run all over my fingers! :) Anyway, now that the premature apology is out of the way, time to move upward and onward! :)

I read Bethany Dillon's latest blog/journal entry today (www.bethanydillon.com) that she called "He has the ability". It encouraged and inspired me, and I sit here smiling on the inside at, yet again, another lesson that we seem to both be going through. Here's some things that I've been sensing, creeping around, at times breathing down my neck lately. I'm not sure what it is, but I'm sure you can put it under the following categories: Independence, Striving in the Flesh, Trying to do things on my own... or ultimately, Pride. I remember saying to a friend not long ago as I was talking on the phone while mopping the floor of my fiancé's house that we really can't do anything without the Lord. We can't even make ourselves go spend time with Him without His help, especially if we are in the midst of crazy busyness, which is unfortunately the way of life for the majority. I so often know that I need that time with Him, yet just like Bethany said, "My heart had been so hard toward pursuing His presence. I always convince myself that it's okay to run on a word from Him for a few days... but my starving soul eats it right up, and then I just run on fumes until I am so miserable I can't go anywhere but Him." I remember my heart saying something like, "Okay Lord, I need Your help to put aside all the things I can be thinking of and just spend time with You." Can anyone else relate?

Something else, I'll say it is Selfishness... or ultimately, Pride. So, my wedding is just a few weeks away and though I am trying to keep especially the week before the wedding as "stress free" as possible, I am seeing more and more plans of other people being developed in the weeks prior that could take my time and attention. I've found myself getting stressed and irritated that these things are happening! I mean, don't people know that I'm getting married that weekend? Come on, we gave enough notice so that the world can come to a halt so that we can make sure that everything falls into the "fairytale" category, smoothly and with few snags! Can't people just put their plans and events on hold, after all, the "princess" needs to be ready for the ball! Wow, the ugliness in my heart is being exposed! Since when is it not okay to say "no"? Since when has God's grace stopped being sufficient? Since when has God stopped being in control? Since when has God needed my help to do all His work? Hmmm. Sounds like I need to labor to enter into His rest!

Perfectionism... or Pride (beginning to see a pattern here?). Even though I may often come across on the radio as calm, collected, and worry-free, sometimes it just isn't so. For being one who has been known to wear my heart on my sleeve, the more discerning listener may notice from time to time when it may not be all sunshine and daisies. Even though we were taught in radio school that even if we are having the worst of days, put a smile on your face because the listeners can hear a smile and a frown. Which is even more of an importance on Christian radio, because we are to be here to offer encouragement to listeners in the midst of their "cloudy" days. I've had a tendency to stress myself out in the area of "doing things" and "fixing myself". I have often thought in essence, "I don't really love the Lord unless..." or "I can't really be a Christian unless I do better in the things that He tells me to do..." like it's all up to me to prove my love, and myself, to the Lord! I think "I have to do it", and when I find myself messing up again, quoting Bethany again, "I realize I'm not that good at it. I don't know if you're like me, but at the first sign of failure-- or even imperfect execution-- I'm out. Finished. Wash my hands of it...So, how could it ever get accomplished? How could a refining process happen? Alright, if any of you are churched kids like me, I'll speak slowly so it may not miss you like it always seems to do with me... I need His HELP. His... HELP. HIS help. Learning how to integrate that in my prayer life has been very interesting-- and tiring to my flesh, honestly."

Now, to brag on my man for a bit. The Lord sure knows what He's doing when He brings two people together. He's just pretty cool. (The Lord and Joel) :) He is, for the most part, calm, collected and generally doesn't get stressed out... for real. His philosophy about stressing is basically "what's the point?". After nearly 7 years of learning how to do marriage from programs on KGCR, I'm finding it quite amuzing lately of how right so many things I've heard are. It's one thing to know it, but another level of learning comes when you actually get to live it. I've heard a few times from different programs about the importance of wives welcoming their husbands home when they get there from work. Greeting them kindly, inviting them to relax for a few to give them time to shift gears from "work-mode" to "home-mode", making them feel important like they are truly still a prize in their wife's heart. Well, in our time together so far, I've already had opportunity to see this. Though we aren't married yet and we don't live together, we still see each other pretty much every night. When we first meet each other for the day, it's usually after we've both been at work. He's done a great job of loving me and being patient with me. In fact, he didn't bring up the following issue, it took the Lord to reveal it to me - which is good.

We were talking the other night, and if I am obviously wearing the burdens of the day on my face first thing when I see him instead of realizing that he and our relationship are more important (issues are only temporary), it doesn't create much of a feeling of appreciation for him, even though he knows I love him - (enter, yet again, selfishness and pride - not putting him before myself). The Lord was showing me a couple things on this. 1) It is good to make a concious effort to direct my thoughts of appreciation toward Joel, not only a bit before I see him, but also throughout the day, remembering the blessing that the Lord has given me in him. This will help me to not have such a "forced" appreciation toward him when we meet "just because I know I need to encourage him," but it also directs my thoughts away from the worries (*Philippians 4:8). When I do this, this will help create a relaxed atmosphere, freeing him to help me with any burdens from the day. 2) It's not any different with the Lord. I've learned, and am learning, how the earthly relationship of husband and wife, really is parallel to the Bride (Church) and the Bridegroom (Christ). We really should be thinking on Him all throughout the day. Even in times before church, do we go into church or daily time with Him, wearing the burdens of the week into our time of worship, or do we go in with appreciation for Him (Psalm 100:4**), knowing that He is the ultimate "fixer" of things, even of us, and we can praise Him for that, trusting Him to, in time do His work, but for now it's time to "love on" Him and let Him "love on" us?

One more item to share. Recently, Joel and I were in Denver, hanging out with my dad (of whom I am proud to announce that even though he is going to be 59 years-old this year, he recently purchased a David Crowder Band CD! - Go Dad!) We were talking about Building 429 and how they got their name. It is from Ephesians 4:29, which says, "Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen." This is a big verse for me and could go on this for an entire blog in itself and some day I might. But for now, I'm going to wrap this puppy up.

Being a Child of God is about selflessness and humility. Children look like their parents. God is a selfless and humble God. Marriage is a great place to allow the Lord to chisle away the junky selfishness and pride in our lives, but it's not a necessary instrument. He can use anything; situations, family, friends, others in the Body of Christ.

When I interviewed Bethany Dillon, I encouraged her to keep sharing those blogs, because others, including myself have been encouraged by them. She may have forgotten my words to her, but I wondered today, as she sits down to write what was on her heart, does she ever hear my voice encouraging her to share? She's probably like me and would write anyway, whether anyone ever read it or not. But I know the words of encouragement that I've gotten back from people, giving indication that the Lord used something I said to build them up. I hope no one takes what I say as Gospel, except for the Scriptures I include themselves, but just as an encouragement for you to dig into the Scripture yourself.

Well, I've gone on long enough. This has already taken longer than I thought and the espresso I think has pretty much left. If you've made it to this point, as Shane would say, "You deserve a cookie" at least! :) Final encouragement, trust the Lord to lead you into Truth, trust the Lord to help you walk out the Truth, consider others better than yourself (Philippians 2:3***), and encourage each other. You just might be giving that person one more push to not give up.


* "Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things." - Philippians 4:8

** "Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name." - Psalm 100:4

*** "Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves." - Philippians 2:3

An Up and Down Month - James

Talk about a time of ups and downs. It's hard to know whether to laugh or cry.

Just over a week ago we learned that Steven Curtis Chapman and his wife Mary Beth lost their youngest daughter in a tragic accident. It hit me especially hard since we also have an adopted daughter named Maria. I can't imagine the pain each member of their family is going through. They definitely need our prayers.

Then this past week Nicol Sponberg (former member of Selah) lost her two month old son to what they think was SIDS. It seems like our web site is filling up with black wrapped photos.

Meanwhile, on the up side, our former Network President and current Board Chairman, Herb Roszhart, and his wife Ardys recently celebrated their 50th wedding anniversary. What an inspiration, especially in a day and age when commitment to a spouse is becoming more and more rare.

Brenda and I will be celebrating our 20th anniversary early in June. The longer I live with her, the more I realize how blessed I am. I first saw Brenda during a radio photo shoot my Junior year in college. I was struck by her outer beauty then but have since had the privilege of learning that she also has a great inner beauty. She truly is a blessing from the Lord.

One other change affecting our lives involves our oldest daughter. It's hard to believe but our little girl is now old enough to drive. And she's really doing pretty well at it. I praise the Lord for drivers ed instructors. I don't think either of us would make it through if I had to teach her.

As I said at the beginning of this post, it's been a time of ups and downs. But the good news is that, during this same time I've been studying Ephesians. Paul's words have reminded me over and over that it's not the circumstances around us that should dictate our moods or attitudes; it's the God we serve, who is at work in us, who is leading and guiding us (if we'll get out of the way and let Him), and who gives us the ultimate joy of knowing that, as His children, Heaven is in our future. If Paul could "count it all joy" writing from a prison cell chained to a Roman guard. If he could ask for prayer, not for deliverance, but that he would run a good race in the location God had placed him, then I should be able to as well. I'm still learning. Satan still drags me down more often then I'd like to admit. But I am learning. I guess the new title to this post should be: "A Month Of Running this Race Called Life in the Service of the King"

Chapman Tragedy - Becca

Well, I've been wanting to post a blog for a while, but I try and wait until I'm inspired to actually say something. I wasn't thinking something like this would be what would do it.

Tragedy hit popular Christian music artist Steven Curtis Chapman's family yesterday afternoon as his 5-year-old and youngest adopted daughter from China, Maria Sue, was accidentally hit and killed by an SUV that was driven by one of their teenage sons as he was driving in the driveway of their home. I found out this morning when I arrived at work when James (my boss) told me of this. It so saddens me, as I, and so many others have come to really respect and appreciate the Chapmans for their love for the Lord and for orphans. They've been used as instruments of the Lord to proclaim His heart for those without fathers and many have been moved to adopt or to reach out to the orphans.

If you haven't heard their story, here it is in a nutshell, from what I've learned from hearing/reading several interviews in the past. The Chapman's oldest daughter, Emily, had a burden for adoption, and through her prayers and persistence of encouraging her parents to do so, the Lord moved on Steven and Mary Beth's hearts to adopt. Their first child they adopted was Shaohannah from China. They later adopted two others from China, Stevey Joy and then Maria Sue.

Taken from www.stevencurtischapman.com, where you can also see a video clip of Steven and Maria taken two months ago...
"Maria Sue Chapman, adopted and youngest daughter to Mary Beth and Steven Curtis Chapman, was killed Wednesday night in a tragic accident in the family driveway on Wednesday evening. She was LifeFlighted to Vanderbilt Children's Hospital but for only reasons God can explain she went home to Him... not to Franklin as we all so desperately wanted.Your prayers are needed for all in the Chapman family.

This is a family who has so generously loved and given to so many. Just hours before this close knit family was celebrating the engagement of the oldest daughter Emily Chapman, and were just hours away from a graduation party marking Caleb Chapman's completion of high school. Now, they are preparing to bury a child who blew out 5 candles on a birthday cake less than 10 days ago. These words are unthinkable to type."

What else can one say at this time? I can't imagine what the family must be feeling right now, especially the son who hit her. Especially the father who adored her. Especially the mother, who at one time didn't know if she could love an adopted child like her own, only to find she could love them deeply. Especially a sister who prayed for her. Especially sons who joined in cheering their parents to adopt again, and had already decided they would one day adopt their own.

Not even popular Christian musicians are exempt from pain in this world, but where there is pain, in Christ, there is still hope and comfort. Thousands, I know, will grieve and pray with the Chapmans.

Romans 12:15b "mourn with those who mourn."
John 16:33b "In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."

Find out more, including how to send condolences to the family and gifts to Shaohannah's Hope, (the organization the Chapmans started to help people who want to adopt) at www.stevencurtischapman.com.

Gospel Music Association-James

My wife Brenda and I spent several days in Nashville earlier this month at the Gospel Music Association's annual convention. It was an interesting time of rubbing shoulders with many of the artists we play, listening to a lot of great music, and learning through numerous sessions during the five day period. Some of the highlights included (1) riding the elevator with Mike Weaver (Big Daddy Weave), and Hunter Smith (Punter from the Colts and member of the group Connersvine), (2) trying to record artist liners for the station with my laptop computer since the regular recorder wasn't working, (3) eating a lot of great food (ask me sometime about the 4 inch thick carrot cake and diet coke) and (4) reminiscing with Jim (key board player from Mercy Me) about our younger days watching the Royals and going to Worlds of Fun in Kansas City. I came away with a new appreciation for the artists we air, their hearts for serving the Lord, and the tough life they have on the road, away from their families, for weeks at a time. By far the majority of artists we met were just humble men and women who are passionate about serving God and are doing their best to honor Him.

The Hectic Life-James

It's been nearly a month since I last wrote. It isn't that I only have something to say once a month. Those of you who know me know I almost always have something to say. But I've noticed that there just isn't enough time to get everything that I'd like to do done. A friend told me recently that he was going to participate in this years Bike Across Kansas and I thought "Wow, that would be fun. I ought to do that too." Our church could use someone on guitar during our worship services and I'd like to do that too. And then there's always someone with a good ministry who needs a web site. But after giving the job 10+ hours a day, helping out in several positions at church, and trying to carve out a little time for my family, the room for added activities gets very small.

The thing I've noticed is that I'm not the only one that has this problem. It seems that every man I talk to is facing the same difficulties. So what do we do? I've been thinking recently about putting the best in front of the good. There are a lot of things that would be good to do and there seems to be a multitude of people around me willing to put me to work. But I have to wonder if doing all of these jobs is really God's best, especially when they start to cut into my time with my family and my time with Him. I'm learning the hard lesson of saying no. It's amazing how hard it can be to say that little two letter word, especially when someone really needs my help and I know I could do the job. But I'm finding that, as I start to say no, God often provides someone else to do the job. That way they get the blessing of serving the Lord too and I can focus on the "best" things God has asked me to do.

Selah - Becca

So here I am today, waiting/wanting to be inspired, being fueled by sleep deprivation and hoping that anything that I say right now will make sense. I don't know about you, but when I'm really tired, I find myself dealing with all sorts of emotions ranging from peace to joy to fear, giving me an opportunity to exercise my spiritual muscles to "take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." (2 Cor 10:5b*) Right now, I would love to sit down with a blanket and some hot green tea in a cozy room dimly light by a table lamp, Bible and journal on my lap and pen in-hand with a variety of mellow worship songs quietly playing - Shane & Shane or Jason Upton is usually a good accompaniment for me. Just sitting in the presence of the Ruler of the nations, Organizer of the universe, and intimate Friend and Father. Ah, peaceful bliss! :)

But for now, I'll just pretend as I sit here at work, trading in my cozy recliner for an office chair, ready to share some thoughts with you, hoping that it will be used by the Lord to bring some encouragement.

So we are fresh off of the Valentine's holiday, the day set aside each year where we get to show special attention to the loved ones in our lives, especially significant others, often giving the opportunity to lavish them with cards, chocolates and flowers and, in many instances, diamond rings. A joyful time for many, a lonely time for others. No matter which camp you find yourself residing in, though, it can lead you to Love. Love is an amazing thing! It has a 100% success rate (1 Cor 13:8). The way of love is the only way that we will ever truly gain anything and be anything (1 Cor 13:1-3). It is the greatest thing that we can have (1 Cor 13:13). God is love (1 John 4:8). Anyone else just floored by that? God is love. God is love. God is love! Even without being sleep deprived, my mind has a tough time wrapping around that!

Over 9 months ago, one of my dearest friends got married to her earthly love. In December, I watched one of the people most precious to my heart entering into a commitment to, by the grace of God, continually practice that unfailing love with her closest friend. Within 30 hours of me writing this I will witness the exchanging of vows of two people that I've been honored to be able to call close friends and look forward to seeing how they will continue to be molded into His image and change the world together. In all of these relationships, I've watched as Love has remained in the center of their relationships. God is love. Love never fails. Think about it - there is hope! : )

In the past month, I've watched how the lack of true Love can destroy a person's mind, will and emotions and how just a little bit of this powerful Love can soften and skillfully heal a hardened, yet shattered heart. I've also seen how the continued revelation of this amazing Love transforms a heart of selfishness and fear into one of selflessness and peace. No drug can fix it. The only thing that has been proven to be 100% effective is...Love! It's Him! He is love, He never fails! There is hope!

This week I was talking to a friend and it was getting to me - this Love. Love was getting to me. He left perfection to become like His Beloved. In doing so, He stepped into His creation that, though it once was beautiful, became a spiritual sewer. He took off majesty and glory to put on a body made of dirt so that for those who choose to know Him, they may become more and more like Him. He was/is so lovesick!

There are so many directions that I could go right now, my mind is reeling around this amazingness. But I'll just leave you with that, hoping that a hunger is stirring in you to drift off into your own journey of discovering Him more. Though my body is tired from busyness and being captured by growing love the last few weeks, my spirit is starting to stir, being awakened in excitement and longing for my Love. Oh, how I want to know Him, to be overcome by Him, absolutely ruined by Him - so lost and hidden in Him that nothing ever distracts me!

Psalm 62:5-8 "Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; He is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge. Selah"

It's all a process, it's all getting to know Love. It's knowing Him, it's Love living in us and through us.

This month we've been privileged to have Bethany Dillon as the Featured Artist of the Month on the Praise FM Top 10. I highly recommend checking out the interview on the Top 10 page in the next couple of weeks. We talked a lot about Love. Love for Him and love for her other love, Shane Barnard of Shane & Shane.

May you be captured by Love as you seek and find Him in a way you never thought possible!

* NIV Version

Exploding Lotion - James

I thought maybe the title of this blog would get your attention. :-) This morning was one of "those days". If you're looking for a deep spiritual thought you're probably not going to get it in this post - but maybe it will give you a reason to smile on a Thursday morning.

I've been having problems with dry skin around my ankles (sweat runs into my socks when I run in cold weather and then freezes against my skin). My wife gave me a bottle of some lotion she found in the cabinet last night that she thought might help. However it seems it had been some time since the bottle had been used and I discovered some interesting facts when I attempted to use it this morning. Fact 1: lotion hardens into an efficient cork over time and Fact 2: plastic bottles become brittle over time. When I squeezed nothing came out. Being a typical man I squeezed harder. Still nothing. Not one to step down from a challenge, I gave one final hard squeeze. I now have a better idea of what happens when something explodes. The walls of the bottle succumb to my superior strength and propelled inward. The resulting compression effectively ejected coconut scented lotion in a circular pattern around the bathroom. And when I say around the bathroom, I mean all around. After wiping down the walls, picking out new clothes, and a second shower I was ready to go for the day.

If you happen to be around me today and smell the scent of coconut don't say a thing!

Thoughts about living in the tri-state area-James

Recently the host of one of the nation-wide programs we air here on Tri-State Praise KGCR was commenting on the drive between Kansas City and Denver and, in the course of his conversation, commented that he felt there was "nothin'" along I-70 worth stopping for. As a staff we decided it was our obligation to show him the error in his statement and educate him on the values of living in northwest Kansas. I'm not sure if our care package of northwest Kansas memorabilia will impress him but our quest has had an unexpected benefit. It's reminded me of how much I appreciate this area. You see, when I moved to Brewster, Kansas in 1989, I was thrilled to get out of Kansas City. But during the past 19 years I've come to take for granted the community that we've called home for nearly two decades. Defending our community has forced me to take a closer look at where I live and just a very few of the MANY reasons that I have to praise the Lord that my family lives in Brewster.

1. Where else can I play kick ball with my family for an hour and know the names of everyone who drives by?
2. Where else can we have a family emergency and know there are multiple families within a one block radius where we can leave our kids without fear?
3. Where else can you go to your neighbor to borrow a tool and have him come back with you and spend an entire weekend helping you fix whatever was broken (using his tools and probably some of his supplies)?

Sure the big city has more restaurants and malls. But I really don't need to pay two days salary for a meal anyway and I didn't know I needed most of the gadgets in the mall before I walked through the door. The majority of what I need can be found right here in northwest Kansas and what can't is only a click away on the Internet and will be delivered right to my front door by a man dressed in brown (who knows me by name and usually stays a little while to chat). A few years ago I spent a week at a conference on Baltimore. Four days into the conference it finally dawned on me - the real difference between Brewster, KS and Baltimore, MD is that, in Baltimore they assume everyone is an enemy until they prove themselves to be a friend. Here in northwest Kansas we assume everyone is a friend until they prove themselves to be a enemy. And, speaking as a transplant into the tri-state area, I'll pick living among friends any day. Just a reminder not to forget to thank God for all His blessings, including the blessing of living right here in northwest Kansas.

Relationships - Becca

I've been thinking lately about relationships. We hear a lot about relationships and how to successfully have them on our KGCR's programs because relationships are what make up life. The first 4 commandments of the 10 are about our relationship with God. The last 6 are about relationship with others (Exodus 20:1-17*). The greatest commandments, sum it all up: "The most important one," answered Jesus, "is this: 'Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.' The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no commandment greater than these." (Mark 12:29-31*)

Relationships are the most rewarding and impactful things in life. The adventure of getting to know someone, learning their likes and dislikes, their joys and even their pains and seeing God work in it all is a wonderful thing. There's much enjoyment in being able to share life with other people. There is reason to celebrate, as we see God writing His story in all of us, all to reflect His glory. The most cherished relationships are what the Lord uses to show us His love for us. He often shares with us that He is a Father. He also paints the picture of Christ being our Bridegroom, the Lover of our souls. It is an amazing understanding to behold!

On the other hand, they are the greatest source of pain and difficulty. Disagreements, misunderstandings, rejection, hurtful words and actions, abuse, etc. The greater turmoil , however, can often come from fear of going through any of those things again. So, in order to keep ourselves from experiencing those things more, we use any number of devices to protect ourselves. We might choose to spend mental energy on preparing for the worst possible scenario, avoid answering the phone or going to a social function, vent to others about how hurt we've been or how wrong the other person was, lie, hurt others because we've been hurt, put others down, etc. - basically practicing unforgiveness instead of choosing love and forgiveness.

Unfortunately, we too often take our fractured experiences and apply them to the Lord. We can consciously or subconsciously say things like "My father/mother/sibling/teacher/boss/pastor/friend was like this, so God the Father must be like that, too." Instead, the challenge is to learn Who the Lord is and apply that so that we can allow His character to be brought out into our lives, that others may see the more beautiful way.

I was recently at a young adult conference in Kansas City and a speaker was sharing about a precious time with his young son who had just spilt Kool-Aid on their new carpet. The son knew better and punishment was needing to be involved. So he took him into his room, and as he was preparing to spank him, his son was trembling before any point of contact. Just before the spanking, his little son cried out in desperation, "Dad have mercy!" The speaker recognized his son's repentant heart and made a deal with him. He said that he won't spank him if he could hold him as long as he wanted. It was agreed and the little guy awkwardly wiggled restlessly in his father's arms for a couple of minutes, but after that, he finally relaxed and just sank in peace, restrained by his father's embrace and rested upon his chest while tears overflowed his daddy's eyes as he felt the love of the Father over both of them in this "God-moment". Some time later, his son had asked him to hold him like that again.

Even as I write this, I still find myself asking, "Could it be true?". Is He a Father Who delights and even longs to show mercy? "Who is a God like you, who pardons sin and forgives the transgression of the remnant of his inheritance? You do not stay angry forever but delight to show mercy." - (Micah 7:18*, emphasis mine). I long to know His character in an even deeper way. In fear of making an image of Jesus to compare with a teddy bear, it's easy to slant more toward the "God of wrath". Ready to pounce on every misstep and blatant rebellion. But may we be careful to not go too far on either side. Christian music artist Bethany Dillon pointed out something in one of her journals in reference to the verse in Deut 6 "'Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one." In The "Oh!" heart of God found on her website (www.bethanydillon.com), she said "...beyond what our brains can process... even beyond what our hearts can contain... there is NO separation. No wrathful side of God vs. the merciful side of God. NO! "The Lord is ONE." Crazy thought, huh?!... if I dwell too much on it, I can sense myself getting a bit loony. :)"

I'm learning that our view of God will affect how we treat others, and how we view others we often believe that's how God is. To stop the crazy cycle, may we be cautious to not continually get a new view of God from Christian movies, books and even godly radio speakers/deejays writing a blog! ; ) As Dr. Woodrow Kroll (Back To The Bible radio host) would say, we "need to go back to the Bible" and with the leading of Holy Spirit, allow Him to reveal the truth in those words to find out Who He really is.

In 1 John, it talks about how we love because He first loved us. And though I've known this before, the phrase came into my mind that "we can forgive because He first forgave us". Along with that, I've also been learning that love really is a choice. According to 1 Corinthians 13, love keeps no record of wrongs. The revelation is starting to unfold, trickling from my brain to my heart! It is my desire that I, and you, will be able to walk in the fullness of His love and forgiveness. Receiving the revelation of His love and forgiveness, being filled with it so that it flows out to others, especially to our most harsh offenders.

This year, I pray that we will all truly become more like Him in these areas. Who is your offender(s)? Who has hurt you that has prompted you to put up defenses and what are those defenses? By seeking His healing, it is the process of choosing love. Choosing the way of Christ.

Lord, grant us all the courage to let You delve into our hearts and hurts, so that You may pour into us a revelation of Your love and healing, that we may be released to love and value You and others in a greater way, in the way You want us to...unconditionally, unrestrained, fully and extravagantly! May we end this year much more free than we began it. In Jesus' powerful, healing, amazing Name!

* New International Version